William Fairbanks Meeker

In Memory of William Meeker

Dear Will,

It is nearing the one year anniversary of your passing, on May 19th, and this is what I have discovered. The empty space that was filled by you is so vast and at times excruciating, yet, I must find a way to co-exist with it. You were the person that made me laugh until I cried, over and over again. You were the person that when I would get exasperated with mankind, would “walk me off the ledge” as they say. You were the person that every time I saw you, I would light up. It was like a wave that washed over me, every time. With your absence, my life has been forever altered and I am working on smoothing the path into the future. Because, son, that’s what I know you’d want me to do. I can hear you saying, “mother, you just have to love God, “don’t worry mother, everything is fine, everything will be fine.” That was you from the time your were a little boy. I wanted you more than anything I had ever wanted, and I got you. I prayed more than anything to live to see you become a man, and I got to see you become a beautiful man. So I have to admit to feeling great gratitude. My longing for you, though, is something that will never be satisfied until I find you again in that beautiful place I know you are. I see you every time I look up at the sky. I can also say there are so many others who are searching for the same thing every time they look up. You were so well loved, son, and are deeply, deeply missed. If grief is all the love we can’t share, then mine for you cannot be measured.

Forever yours.

With love,
Mother