Pauline Kirkpatrick Abbe 1928-2006

Pauline_Abbe.jpgby Jessica Abbe

My mother, Pauline Kirkpatrick Abbe, spent 20 happy years in
Santa Barbara, though she never intended to live here. In 1982, my
father, Justice Richard W. Abbe, had served as Superior Court judge
in Shasta County for 18 years, and was hoping for an appointment to
the California Court of Appeal in the last days of Jerry Brown’s
governorship. When he learned that the vacancy on the Sacramento
bench had been filled, he dealt with the disappointment in his
usual way: by taking an early morning run along the Sacramento
River in Redding.

While he was out of the house, the governor phoned. Mom figured
there was still hope. Though she was not a runner, she put on her
gardening sneakers and went after my father. When they finally
returned to the house and called the governor, she stood at Dad’s
side as he thundered in surprise, “Santa Barbara?!”

“We’ll take it!” she cried.

My father’s career was also my mother’s. She supported him
through anxious election campaigns, and created a home life that
was a refuge from the difficult reality of the courts. She believed
in adapting herself to the situation, never regarding her actions
as self-sacrificing, as younger women more focused on their own
achievements might have done.

The daughter of a physics professor, she grew up at Stanford
University. Her parents built a home on campus, igniting Mom’s
lifelong passion for architecture, landscaping, and self-education.
When she had her first daughter at age 18, she put aside her dreams
of becoming an architect and set about becoming the best mother she
could be. She accepted occurrences beyond her control without
agonizing; her natural stoicism and optimism may have been the key
to her happiness.

That, and growing a garden of girls and landing in Santa
Barbara. She loved Santa Barbara, and had the good fortune to move
here after her four children were out of the house and she could
throw herself into her civic passions. She worked as a legislative
aide to then-senator Jack O’Connell. She fundraised for the Fund
for Santa Barbara and Environmental Defense Center. She escorted
women into Planned Parenthood. She provided a beautiful home for
likeminded people to promote the causes she believed in, argue
about politics, and further friendships. After a lifetime of
getting her hands dirty, her backyard garden in Santa Barbara was
the most bountiful of all. She also volunteered at the Botanic

“Her life was her art,” said Diane Johnson, author of Le
and my mom’s friend of 35 years. “Pauline surrounded
herself with beauty and shared it with her friends.” Rachel Ehlers,
Pauline’s granddaughter, remembered, “She taught me that part of
our responsibility in this world is to educate ourselves through
both formal and informal methods, to form an opinion, and to act on
our beliefs to try to make the world a better place.”

In Redding during the ’60s, ’70s, and ’80s, Mom was president of
Redding’s public television station and active in Democratic
politics. She helped establish the League of Women Voters in Shasta
County and served as the first president of the local chapter. She
expected her children to volunteer, too; I canvassed for Senator
Eugene McCarthy when I was 11, and worked at the TV station when I
was 12. I remember Mom taking me out of school to see Z, the
Costa-Gavras film about tyranny in Greece. We marched together in
the War Moratorium. My sister Jenny remembers being the only white
family at a church remembrance for Medgar Evers.

During the Vietnam War, our home was often the first stop for
workers who had joined VISTA  — a domestic Peace Corps — to avoid
the draft while serving their country. After some young men
discovered that my mother was a good cook — with many
daughters — they showed up every night. One idealistic young man
from New York, a lawyer named Marshall Salzman, would always
exclaim, “Spaghetti (or stew, or tacos)! My favorite meal!” That
fellow married my sister Martha.

Toby McLeod and I were married by my father under the grapefruit
tree in Mom’s Santa Barbara garden. We are documentary filmmakers,
and my mother not only helped us with fundraising, but also
traveled with us to remote Native American sites to care for our
children as we filmed. I remember driving long miles through New
Mexico while Mom and Dad sang “I’ve Been Working on the Railroad”
over and over to my teething son. My sister Sally and her husband
Steve Osborn helped Mom build her dream cabin at Lake Tahoe. It
says a lot about Mom that she has been so well loved not just by
her daughters, but by her sons-in-law.

To me, the youngest of four girls, it seemed like Mom was always
there at home, and I was the one who came and went; but, in fact,
she traveled to China, India, France, Italy, Panama, Nepal, Peru,
Nicaragua, Mexico, and Alaska. The year after my father died
suddenly of an aneurism, Mom went to the Galápagos on his dream
vacation. She missed him terribly, but believed in living for him,
rather than letting too much of herself die with him. She
celebrated her 75th birthday and their 50th wedding anniversary
scrambling up the Trinity Alps with her family, and teaching her
grandchildren to enjoy the meadow frogs and tiger lilies. In 2003,
Mom moved back to northern California to live near her daughters.
She joined the board of the Shasta Land Trust and volunteered at
the McConnell Arboretum.

Were it not for the brain tumor, I believe she would have lived
to be 98, like her father. Her body was incredibly strong. After
her craniotomy last July, she took a few Tylenols and was home
having a birthday lunch with grandchildren three days later. She
never spent another night in the hospital and never complained,
despite her radiation treatment, chemotherapy, and frequent

As her world became smaller, she undertook her final great
garden project. With the help of her daughter Jenny and son-in-law
Dean Moyer — her nextdoor neighbors in Redding — she converted the
tidy yard around her tract home into a thriving botanic garden.
Children came by to help; neighbors cheered her on. She had a pool
built, and used the excavated dirt to create small hills covered
with native plants and trees that would grow long after she was
gone. The week she died, her gardenias put on their greatest
display of blossoms; her room filled with their sweet scent, the
sound of grandchildren splashing in the pool, and the tears of four
grown women.

Mom taught us how to live, and when the time came, she taught us
how to die. Her death was peaceful. Her stoicism masked the psychic
agony of her last weeks, but my sisters and I saw it; after all,
we’re stoic too, and can see the deep pools of feeling beyond the

“Does your head hurt, Mom?” asked my sister Jenny, her primary
caregiver during the last six months.

“No,” she said.

“Does your soul hurt?”

“Yes.” It hurt to leave us, and it hurts us to let her go.

But now I must go out and water the garden.


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