I Looked for What Was Wrong
I looked for what was wrong
some of us do
educational training
the rigidity of classical music
right from wrong
a habit
instinctual protection
watch out
huge variation
so many systems
finding the flaw
from the beginning
every place you look
the human condition
I am good at it
especially myself
I realized as a mother
finally
the difference
a little boy standing before me
say one, two, three, four, five
crying
confusion
what am I doing
positive or negative
a difficult perspective
how it’s received
what is this purpose
life
survival
beautiful little beings
where is the balance
now
finally
I am aware
the pressure on myself
all my life
everyone
everywhere
perfection
protection
watching
a defense mechanism
relentless
a very bad habit
hurting everyone
unintentional
especially myself
not what I wanted
trying to care for the world
the people on it
driving south on the freeway
Saturday morning
6:00 a.m.
almost alone
light arriving
replacing the dark
bright pink clouds
blazing orange
beautiful shining gold
massive Pacific Ocean
lying peacefully to the right
just hanging out
silence
there is nothing more to say
