Murder in the First

If you know anything about trauma induced amnesia, you understand that someone afflicted with the disease can remember details of some aspects and remember nothing of others. My mother lost her memory completely last summer, while in jail. Since then, family members and counselors have worked with her to spark memories into returning. In the beginning, she didn't even know she had children, let alone grandchildren. But as time goes by, memories slowly return. However nothing as recent as the crime she has been charged with has surfaced in her mind. Now she remembers cooking with her grandchildren, she remembers appliances, but she can't remember what her kitchen looked like. And memories of her own feelings have not returned. She remembers several past events early in her life, but she can't remember her reactions to those events. Her personal feelings have not returned. How is she supposed to show emotion in court for a crime that she feels no connection to? The District Attorney played portions of recorded phone conversations, but he didn't bother to play the parts where we spoke about new memories that have returned, or the sentences where she stated what she can and can't remember. Or the phone conversations where she had to ask the color of my eyes and my middle name because she couldn't recall them. He presented his segments as evidence that she remembers everything, but in his out-of-context portions she never said she remembered anything about being part of a murder plot. Since her memories began returning, she has never stated that she has no memories at all, just that she has no memory of committing murder.

A lot of the facts in the article above have been twisted and are portrayed incorrectly. My father never had a trial, and people aren't allowed to "exchange" portions of their sentences with others. In return for my father agreeing to plead guilty, some charges against my sister were dropped. But nobody bothers to mention that the District Attorney would never have agreed to drop charges that he thought he could make stick. It's the DA's job to make sure that every person guilty of involvement in a crime gets punished. So he obviously knew he didn't have a strong enough case against my sister, and he let the "trumped up" charges go.

The people that walked out of the sentencing hearing when the photos were shown were Jones family members, not Davidson's. We endured a slide show and photos during the sentencing hearings for my father and sister, and had no desire to see them again. Were we sitting in a courtroom or a movie theater? Not one of the people that spoke about the loss of Jarrod Davidson portrayed him as the person that he truely was. They spoke about the Jarrod that was on the outside, not the Jarrod behind closed doors. Unfortunately, the proof of what actually happened behind those doors was not allowed in the court room. The judge and the District Attorney both knew that if the true story was allowed to be told, the sentence would be much different and may affect thier personal image. If a light sentence was given because of a motive of child molestation, people might think the judge would be condoning murder. But if a heavy sentence is given for murdering a child molestor, a judge would be condoning the molestation in the eyes of the public. So any motive for the murder of Jarrod Davidson was never given. Under all circumstances, it is wrong to take the life of another person. But it is not a fair trial if the suspected killer's state of mind is never allowed to be revealed. The first question that jumps into everyone's mind when a crime is committed is: WHY DID YOU DO IT? But in the case of my parents and my sister, nobody was allowed to answer that veiled question. If my parents murdered Jarrod, the reasons why should be relevent. Nobody would act so irrationally without provocation. Especially good, loving people like my parents.

I watched Dateline tonight and saw the first tidbits of this. I do have to say, this must be VERY hard for ALL families involved. I thought I heard that they couldn't mention the motive only in your mom's case do to her amnesia? In all honesty I have mixed emotions about this whole story. I know that if someone was supposedly molesting my child I would protect my child, but I don't know that I could murder. There are several parents every year that leave the state or move. Go into hiding of some sort if they believe justice isn't being served. There are groups out there supporting just about every cause, couldn't they habe done something other than murder?

In order for me to actually say what I believe I would have to see all records and such. From what I have read and seen on TV (which I know is doctored), Philip stated in the hospital and in court that he killed Jarrod. Isn't that enough evidence right there? If you are under oath don't you have to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

After watching the program this evening, it is hard to muster any sympathy for your family. It appears that the court system was abused trying to color Jarrod as an evil child molester. There were several attempts to take him to court over several issues. Enough that a judge admonished the ex-wife of Jarrod. I think that there are several options that you can explore without resorting to murder. I don't believe that anyone in the family was innocent. It appears all had a hand in the murder. It was a senseless tragedy. Murder is murder and nobody has a right to try and rationalize it.

The cold blooded murder of Jarrod Davidson was just that--cold blooded murder. For "Kasee" to continue the family's spin of somehow justifiable killing only reinforces the sociopathic nature of this family's crime. Shame on you.

The only travesty in this case is the ridiculously light sentence given to Jarrod's ex-wife.

Kasee - you keep saying "if" my parents murdered Jarrod, you need to understand that "if" it is true that your mother lost her memory it does not negate the fact that YOUR FATHER admitted to killing Jarrod and how should I put this, "gave your mother up," as well. I know that it is probably very hard for you to accept that your parents don't love you as much as they love Kelee or else they would have let you in on their plans but nevertheless you need to accept that your parents murdered Jarrod. If I were you I would try to change the legacy for my own children and do something right for once- besides isn't the old man scheduled to die any day now and your mom is going to spend the rest of her life behind bars. They have no power over you anymore. Why don't you disassociate yourself from the murderers you call mom and dad- besides they don't have any money any more anyways. What do you need them for??

The above comment bothers me. Just because my parents have been convicted of murder does not mean that I should love them any less. And why would their crime show that they love Kelee more? She is serving time in prison, away from her daughter, from supposedly being part of their plans - judging by that, couldn't you say they love me more because they kept me out of it? It has nothing to do with favoring Kelee over me, it has to do with protecting their grandchild - whether erroneously or not. In my heart, I know that if it had been one of my children in danger, they would have done whatever to took to help them, too.

If every child or parent deserted their loved one because of a crime, nobody would have anyone to turn to. Doesn't the bible look at all sins as equal? So should I have ditched my parents years ago when they lied to me about Santa Clause? Get real. No matter what the circumstances are, my mother is still my mother, and my father is still my father. And I choose to do my duty as a loving daughter and stand by them. They earned my unconditional love years ago, by showing the same to me. That will never change.

This criminal family is the most disgusting and evil group of human beings I have ever seen. I cannot believe any of the remaining free family members are cold enough to continue defending their horrible relatives. Kasee, you should be ashamed of yourself for continuing to defend those who have rightfully pled guilty to save their hides and avoid the chair.

Kasee, you and your "god-fearing" family seem to quote the bible a lot. But any first grader can tell you there is a difference between Santa Claus and murder, they also would be able to spell it correctly.
And what unconditional love are you speaking of? I thought your father called you a slut and kicked you out when you got knocked up in high school.
Oh, and by the way to you, Eric and "Justine" their is spelled t-h-e-i-r.

There it is again, believing what is heard instead of asking the truth. I was never called a slut and I was not thrown out of the house when I got pregnant! The district attorney needs to learn to use entire conversations instead of taking parts and piecing them together to make me look bad. I was not involved in that trial, I don't deserve to have my name slandered. I was sent to live with my aunt and uncle during my junior year of high school because I was hanging with a bad crowd and my parents wanted to get me away from them. It worked. But when I moved back home, I naively hooked up with an older guy and ended up pregnant. My parents were by my side every step of my pregnancy and supported my decision to keep the baby - which is much more than I can say about the Davidson's, who told Kelee to get an abortion when she found out she was pregnant with Malia. Before you judge someone based on Mr Perlin's word, have the correct information to back up your statements! I am not ashamed of anything I have done, nor am I ashamed of anything I plan to do in the future. I will support the family that has stood by me. That is what family is for.

And what's with the typo corrections? Don't have anything better to say?

Kasee...I'm so sorry that you would have to endure this in your life. I have always thought about you and your family through the years. I would like to visit your sister if possible. I am still here in Oceanside. Contact me if you can. Your friend, Sara

You're right Kasee, I did believe what I heard, the words coming out of your MOTHER'S mouth. Mr. Perlin did not comment on your loose ways, he just pushed play. Or am I to question everything your mother says since we all know she is a manipulative liar.
P.S. If sending you to live with your aunt and uncle worked, how come you ended up pregnant in high school?

The conversation played by Mr Perlin was only a portion of what was said. He purposely chose lines he could twist to his advantage. He had no reason to include words that hurt me, he had plenty of other taped phone calls to cull information from. But that is the kind of person he has proven to be. I'm not denying that I didn't follow the "respectable" path, but that has nothing to do with my parent's situation. It speaks volumes that they didn't turn me out when I was a rebelious teenager that "got into trouble" and embarrassed them. They supplied me with my options and wholeheartedly gave their support for the path of life that I chose. My parents may have made a mistake, and may have committed a crime that can never be taken back, but that doesn't mean that they are bad, evil people. It means they made a bad choice that can't be fixed. Throwing accusations at me, and saying that I should be ashamed to support my family, isn't going to bring Jarrod back. And saying hurtful things about me shouldn't make anyone feel better, either. It infuriates me that the public feels the need to paint my entire family with the same brush, just because we choose not to abandon eachother during a time of need. If anyone chooses to remember, my husband and I were on good terms with the Davidson family when this whole thing started. Once the hurtful comments began going back and forth, communication became strained. We are all family, tied together through Malia. Nobody has to like me, but fighting with me isn't going to help Malia heal. And my past doesn't make one single bit of difference when it comes to helping that child grow up loved.

Kasee, enough of the fancy waffle words, let's get to the bottom line. You say "My parents may have made a mistake, and may have committed a crime that can never be taken back, but that doesn't mean that they are bad, evil people." That's like saying that your parents committed the worst of all crimes, but it's OK since they're such great people. Do you endorse what they did, or don't you? Plain and simple, do you think that it's OK to commit murder under certain circumstances, or did your family just go way out over the edge to where nobody should ever go? You can't waffle between, or else nobody will ever pay attetion to anything you say.

Kasee, you are correct. The decisions you made a long time ago don’t have anything to do with helping “that child” grow up loved.

It's your upbringing, your distorted views of what is right and wrong, your inability to accept the truth, your actions and written words that prevents you from having a loving relationship with “that child”.

It’s not your fault, it’s never a Jones’ fault. The Jones family motto is “never accept blame and it’s always okay to lie, just don’t get caught”. And why would you accept blame or tell the truth, it’s so much easier to lie and blame everyone else. I’ve read your comments that you believe your sister had no knowledge of the plans of your parents to murder Jarrod and that she is spending time behind bars on “trumped” up charges. Why did she accept the plea deal? Why didn’t she take a polygraph exam to clear her of all charges? Please spare us the typical Jones answer to these questions, like the legal system is corrupt and she didn’t want to take a “gamble” on the system. Try telling the truth. Your sister knew your parents were going to kill Jarrod and she helped them do it.

The key to acceptance is to begin taking small steps to reverse your life long learned behavior. For example, instead of reacting to the comment about the spelling of t-h-e-i-r with “so what’s with the typo correction? Don’t you have anything better to say?”. Why not do some self-examination and admit your error. It wasn’t a typo, it’s the way you spell the word. And how do I know that, you spelled it wrong nine times in your comment to the Independent story entitled: MALINDA JONES FOUND GUILTY:

Now show the world you can deal with the truth, start your next entry with, “I was wrong, I made a mistake, thank you for pointing out my error”. The truth will set YOU free, unfortunately that is not the case for your sister, the truth would keep her behind bars for the rest of her life.

I can't believe what horrible, hateful things are being said here and I can't believe that none of you here have never found yourself in a situation that you never planned on being in during the course of your lifetime! Why abuse Kasee this way? You do not prove yourselves to be any better by saying the things that you do about her. The truth is that none of us can ever tell when we will wake up in a situation that we never planned on being in, whether through intent or by default, all that we can do is carry on with our lives the best way we know how. I commend Kasee for doing just that and by living her life the best way that she can under the circumstances, and no matter what the circumstances I would hope that my family would always choose to stand by me. I am sure that all of you at some point in your lives will hope the same thing.

Thank you, Sara. And thank you, Johnson, for pointing out my misspellings - I will pay more attention to my typing in the future. Years of piano lessons have caused one hand to type faster than the other. I appologize if my slight errors have offended anyone.

As to Kelee taking a polygraph to clear her of charges, that was never offered. The District Attorney chose to use her as a pawn to get a conviction on my parents. If anyone has a problem with the sentence that Kelee received, they should speak with the District Attorney, who obviously knew her innocence and just didn't want to admit his mistake in arresting her. After all, he got what he wanted - a full confession from my dad.

And, no, I don't condone murder. But I can't say that my parents were wrong to try and protect their grandchild. If the District Attorney is right, and the cooerced confession from my dad can be taken as the truth, then their actions were wrong, but not the feelings behind those actions. I'm not waffling between right and wrong - this situation is not black and white, cut and dry. While murder is wrong, protecting a child is not. Take that as you will. I know where I stand, and that's beside my family.

Hey "Sara" - where were you when Phil and Kelee were being sentenced for their horrible crimes? Where were you when Mindy was being sentenced for her horrible crime? You said you live in Oceanside - it is not that far from Santa Barbara- why did you not come up to show your support for the murdering Joneses. Why didn't you sit with Kasee and her young son (which was very appropriate, I might add, why didn't you bring the whole family in Kas? They all deserve to see what a good, honest, no bad bone in her body woman your mother is!) and listen to all the victims right's statements? You could even have made a statement about your good, honorable friend Kelee. Then we would have heard two in support of Kelee because Kasee did not feel the need to speak on behalf of her sister or her dad. I wonder why? For a person who feels so passionately about family values, who wants to stick by her family, she had no words to say. Interesting. And "Sara" no one "found" themselves in a "situation." Kelee had a man over and he coincedentally left right after the exact time Jarrod was murdered. Mindy and Phil drove 70 miles with a rifle, stopped and bought a card to I might add, implicate an innocent young student(also very commendable) and knocked on Jarrod's door, shot him brutally, and yelled something so cruel I cannot even repeat it (except maybe to you Kasee). Not to mention the fact that Mindy and Phil cased Jarrod's neighborhood the day before to ensure that they would not be caught. These are facts "Sara" - this is not made up. This is not coerced. So don't you ever tell me anybody just "found" themselves in a situation.

"Jones"-Obviously there is too much pain and suffering here for this conversation to go anywhere productive. I simply maintain that life is difficult-and that I choose to support someone who is willing to stand by her family. Of course, she could "walk away" but what purpose would that serve? I am only here to remind Kasee that there are humans on this earth who do not hate her, judge her, or condemn her for being another human being. I choose not to get so involved in this situation but only to offer my support to Kasee-I hope that you have someone in your life that offers the same to you so that you may make the best of the life and situations you have found yourself in.
Kasee-pure and simple I offer my support. Your strength is astounding as it has always been.

I spoke on my mother's behalf because it was her sentence that was about to be imposed, not my father's or sister's. My 12 year old son requested to sit with me and his great-grandparents, to show his support for his grandmother. By leaving my small children in the hallway with my husband, I showed respect for the quiet courtroom any judge deserves. Your sarcasm has not gone unnoticed, Jones, but you may find a better use for it elsewhere.

Kasee I do feel sorry for what you have gone through and how you are being portrayed, but surely you must understand the accusations, and the way Jarrod is being portrayed. If any evidence was present to support the allegations of sexual abuse they would have come out. Kelee may have brought the allegations forward to better her position during the custody case, many not true things are bounced around during custody hearings. You should hope for the best and work towards making sure that child has a family.

To rnpract: The evidence needed to prove the molestation was found during the murder investigation. Had the sheriff's done a thorough search when he failed that first lie detector test, Jarrod would still be alive today - in prison for child pornography, among other things. It's unfortunate for both sides that the Santa Barbara Sheriff's Department and District Attorney's Office brushed off the allegations as a custody dispute instead of looking deeper into the case.

Kasee, it's pretty sad that you cling to these allegations that your family made against Jarrod. I guess you have to, though, since the only other choice is to accept the fact that the claims were all false and your family made them up. Your claims just don't hold up against the conclusions of the Sheriff's department, the District Attorney's office, at least three therapists who have spent quality time with Malia, and even Dateline, who consistently referred to your claims as "the discredited molestation claims". It's time to let it go and move on with your own life. And it's time to quit bashing the victim of your parents' murder plot, sine he's not here to defend himself.

Kasee- wow! You really changed your tune... it is so surprising and uncharacteristic of your family because they always seem to stick to one story and never waiver with their statements or their alibis. Your first entry said "if my parents murdered Jarrod" your next couple allude to the fact that you believe they did murder him and finally in this last entry you make it pretty clear that you KNOW that your parents murdered Jarrod. Or maybe you are just saying you know who the true killer is. Maybe you and O.J. can join forces in telling the world the truth. You are so pathetic it hurts to think that you are shaping the minds of three young kids. You always fail to make any connections and you consistently contradict yourself. You attack the judge in your first entry, stating he suppressed evidence because HE did not want to look bad. And then in a later entry you state that you kept your young children outside the court so as not to disturb the judge and give him the respect he deserves. Do you understand the irony? You blast him, his job, his position is a well respected one, he has worked hard to get to that level of importance and stature and in your crazed, delusional reality, you think he purposely withheld relevent information so he wouldn't look bad. Do you know how ridiculous that is?? Can you wrap your head around how ignorant you sound? Secondly, you completely ignore the fact that it was the same detective who investigated Kelee's claims against Jarrod that put your SISTER, MOTHER, AND FATHER in jail!!! The same man!!! The same sheriff's department!! How come Jarrod was never charged?? Do you get it yet? Do you need me to add the fact of how absurd it is that we now are supposed to believe that you were privy to the information on Jarrod's computer? Did the sheriff's department consult with you? They probably were attracted to your high level of intellect!! And of course Jarrod's family had no idea of the man that he was, but you, oh yes, you knew Jarrod. What did you have daily talks? You probably had lunch at least once a week to catch up on old times. Your comments although amusing are really starting to get old but keep making them I am sure mom and dad will read them, from what I hear they have a lot of time on their hands...

well, well, well, kasee...i'm quite sure that ted bundy's family also stood by him...what is your point? how saintly of you , why you are better than tammy wynette, for sure...let's see..first your family was innocent, at grover beach, far, far away...then after irrefutable evidence was found, well, since he "molested" his daughter, he got his just deserts. wow, what a change of heart. listen kiddo, i've know jarrod for over twenty years, until your insane family snuffed him out. i also know that he was never advised to tell that lying witch of a sister, to get an abortion..no, he was told NOT to marry her, that his child would still be his child, and he could love and support her, until of course your darling trailer trash parents ended his life so violently, and senslessly, that they should have received the death penalty. and your equally trashy sister should remain in prison for the rest of her miserable life. you can defend these sick, depraved , i certainly can't call them people, till the day you die, and it will NEVER make the henious crime they commited justified. i find it so strange that the detectives investigating these trumped up molestation charges, never found one iota of proof..oh, and by the way all the other little things that your family tried to do (unsuccessfully, i may add) to prevent jarrod from seeing malia, including moving 8 hours away, without notifying the court, and finally your sister being told by the family court judge to quit all the crap,or she would lose custody, didn't deter jarrod from EVER seeing malia. and, as someone else added, the same detective that investigated jarrod, and found him INNOCENT, happened to also investigate the murder. so, let's see...judge, jury, investigating officers, forensic evidence, grand jury, and anyone that knew jarrod, KNOWS that your parents, and again, i shudder to use that word for them, are sick, twisted cold blooded murderers, and your sister, the vestige of purity and innocence, set this whole horrible plan in motion. personally, i think that just by being related to the cesspool you call family, the child protective service should be watching your children very carefully, since they have also been raised in this depraved surrounding. the best advise that i would offer you, is to get into therapy, to find out why you cannot stop defending your beyond defendable "parents", move far, far away, and change your name, to give your children, at least a chance to grow up to be semi-normal adults, please.

To jewknowwho: I received a phone call from my sister after Jarrod's loving parents told her that she would be ruining Jarrod's life if she kept the baby. And no matter how long you've known Jarrod, do you really think he'd tell you that he likes kinky sex with underage girls? I don't need therapy, and neither do my children. Since you know nothing about ME, you have no right to assume anything about ME or my children.

I'm not defaming your character, you're entitled to your opinions. And so am I. If you'd like to dispute my views, that's fine, but it can be done without refering to my personal character - and without negative reference to my children.

To Jones: where did I ever say that I KNOW my parents did anything. I was not there. You, apparently weren't, either. Guesses can be made, assumptions can be made, but unless you were there you can't say you KNOW anything. The DA proved that my mother's DNA was present, but he couldn't prove how it got there - he could only assume. And he could prove which cell phone tower was used during a phone conversation, but he couldn't prove where anyone went or why. He theorized. He drew conclusions from his ideas, but since he wasn't there - he doesn't KNOW exactly what happened anymore than he KNOWS what was going through my parent's heads. Can everyone read minds now, too?

And, yes, I am aware of some of the information his computer kept. The sheriff's didn't disclose it, but attorneys did, while looking for some clue as to why this info was not previously known - it should have been discovered during the investigation of the molestation charges.

And while I despise the hypocrisy the judge showed during this entire case, he still deserves respect. I don't have to agree with him in order to show him respect. -- and you don't have to agree with me to show me some respect, too. --

Kasee, you need to take some of your own advice. You don't KNOW what was or wasn't on Jarrod's computer, since you weren't there. You don't KNOW what Jarrod's parents did or didn't say, since you weren't there. There are many other examples of what you don't KNOW, but you get the idea. You're making yourself look pretty silly making all these assertions that are nothing more than third-hand rumors and wishful thinking by your family. Nobody's going to believe that the whole world is against you and your family. It's just not credible and is not supported by any of the many highly qualified professionals who have dealt with the aftermath of your parents' actions.

You're right, Gary, I don't KNOW what Jarrod's parents said. I apologize. I only commented on what I was told happened, just like everyone else who's spoken on this case. But I KNOW what was in his computer - I've seen photos.

so, you ACTUALLY saw IN PERSON jarrod having "KINKY" sex with underage girls...with your very own eyes...and by the way, i do know LOTS about you, your one-eyed husband, and your children....and i couldn't possibly refer to your "personal character", because you don't have any. jarrod has been gone for over 2 years, and you still can't help heaping false accusations on someone whose voice was snuffed out by your loving family, so he couldn't even defend himself. so you are more aware of revelant info. on his computer, that the forensic experts, couldn't pull up? and the attorneys who knew were, let me guess...your family's? and they still managed to lose ..all of their cases...wow...did you ever hear of the expression,"beating a dead horse", look, your parents are comming out of prison only feet first, because no one in their right mind will ever believe the lies and deciet, and that had been proven again and again, from the grand jury, to all of the trials. please let jarrod rest in peace, and really get some therapy to help you understand why you keep defending your murderous family, and lying about jarrod.

Kasee, you do have the right to stand beside your family but you must accept the fact that your parents murdered Jarrod Davidson. There are no disputed facts that require any analysis of the case against your parents. What is required is for you to step up to the plate and accept the fact that your parents ended the life of Jarrod Davidson and that any attempt to justify their actions is fruitless.

Everyone in the courtroom heard your father say that he and your mother drove to Santa Barbara on July 9, 2005, that your mother purchased the plant at Vons, she signed the card, she placed the plant on Jarrod’s porch and your father shot him. These facts are known to be true, the questions you raise about the validity of the facts and the assumptions can only be viewed as a desperate grasp at shreds of doubt that no longer exist, twelve people on the jury decided that.

The people reading your comments know a lot more about you than you think. They know from your written words your inability to accept the truth. They know you are compelled to offer justification for you and your family’s actions, whether true or not. You demonstrated this point with your half hearted apology to Jones for your spelling error of the word their and then saying it’s because of your years of piano lessons. They know from your last entry that what you have been told cannot be relied on, in your own words, “You're right, Gary, I don't KNOW what Jarrod's parents said.” They know you lack basic parenting skills by having your son and children attend your mothers sentencing hearing.

What they don’t know is why you feel compelled to offer unverifiable information to the world two years and three plus months after the murder of Jarrod Davidson.

What they don’t know is why you make unverifiable claims against Jarrod’s parents.

What they don’t know is why you feel it necessary to continue to defend the actions of your parents and why you continue to challenge Jarrod’s character. What is to be gained by doing that?

What they don’t know is at what point did your mother’s condition change from autobiographical amnesia as claimed by her lawyer to trauma-induced amnesia as stated by you.

What they don’t know is the actions you have taken (if any) to remain in Jarrod’s daughters life.

What the people reading this DO know is it doesn’t matter what you think or say. The cold hard fact is Jarrod Davidson has been taken from his family, his friends and his daughter. They will live with the loss of their loved one for the rest of their lives.

This will be my first, last and only post. I will not be back to read any comments or reactions. I know of this story because at one time I knew the Jones family. It is very disheartening to read the comments posted here. Instead of focusing on mud slinging please realize that there is a little girl whose life will never be “normal.” Despite what any therapist, teacher, loved one, or outsider says, Malia will have a hard time truly believing that this is not her fault. Please don’t lose perspective here. There is a little girl who growing up should only be concerned with what clothes to wear the first day of school, how her make up looks the first time she tries it for herself and whether she will be asked to the prom. Instead she will be dealing with the fact that her father is gone, she does not have a mother who she can with no doubt or reservations call her hero, and that despite any amount of therapy will have a hard time not blaming herself. It is hard enough growing up; I can only pray that this little girl has the chance to become a well adjusted adult.

Nothing on this post can change what has happened. What is done is done. Accusations and justifications are lost in the grand scheme of things. Nothing said here will bring Jarrod back or excuse the actions of others. Instead of sitting down to post the next comment please step away from your computer and pray that Malia will find peace in this life. That Malia, despite the horrible circumstances that have changed her life forever, will at some point be able to think of nothing except who will ask her to the prom. Growing up is hard enough.

I am truly saddened by the loss felt by everyone involved. No one wins. My prayers are with one little girl who is trying desperately to understand where life has taken her. And why such heartache and scandal was bestowed upon her. I hope at some point she will find piece in her life. While I am not a fan of quotes, this one from Desiderata seems appropriate. And this is my wish for Malia………………………..
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Thank you, Unknown. That sums up my entire view. Yes, I've tried to defend my family's actions, but not because I haven't accepted what happened - only because I want everyone to know that any actions that were taken were done so to help preserve Malia's little life. Her safety has always come first, so that her only concerns can be about her friends at school. My husband and I have had to spend several thousand dollars just to be able to remain in Malia's life, and it's still an uphill battle with the Davidson's. We've had to get court orders to visit Malia because the Davidson's feel she should heal without us in her life. I understand that their loss of Jarrod is devastating. But taking my children out of Malia's life, too, won't help her heal. It'll just add one more loss. Jarrod's cousins all spoke about how close they were growing up - well, Malia and my children were that close, too, before Richard and Susan decided that they didn't want us in their new life. No matter what my parents or sister did or didn't do, my children and Malia don't deserve to have that bond broken. She's my niece, and I love her very much. Those feelings don't change because Jarrod is gone. I have always loved Malia, and always will. And the Davidson's will have to accept that, and realize that the more love Malia has, the better she can heal.

Kasee, I’m very disappointed by your post above. I KNOW, first hand, and you know, that many of your statements are entirely inaccurate or gross exaggerations of the facts. I’m not going to go into details because it’s nobody’s business but yours and the Davidson’s.

Up until now I have wanted to believe that your interests are consistent with what’s best for Malia. But when you throw gas on the fire this way, it can only be because you have another agenda in mind. Maybe you enjoy being in the limelight or seeing yourself published here, or maybe you think you are serving the interests of the family that's in prison, but that doesn’t make it OK to make things worse for everyone concerned.

Given that this is your conduct, I too will be signing off of this board. It is my sincere hope that you can find a way to act constructively to the interests that you profess to hold dear.

along with gary, this will also be my last post. as i said repeatedly therapy is needed. i know for a fact the the davidsons' NEVER prevented you, eric, or your children from seeing malia. the terms imposed on you were the same terms imposed on jarrod, when he was ever able to visit his own daughter. apparently, it was also fine for susan and richard to have to adhere to such restrictions, but not all right for you. oh, and let's not mention the MORE than several thousand dollars the davidson family has had to shell out over the four years of custody hearings, lawyers, etc. for jarrod to continue to be able to see malia, until of course, your family decided the best way to love and protect their granddaughter, was to kill her father in cold blood. remember nothing says i love you more that taking away her daddy..and having her grandparents spending the rest of their days in prisons miles and miles apart, not to mention a mother also serving time in prison. kasee, start trying to put your life back together, maybe get a job, instead of constantly replying to every article printed about your family. you quite haven't figured out that there isn't enough ink, paper, or cyberspace around to defend these murderers, because everyone but you, knows the real truth. PHIL, MINDY, and KELLEE are MURDERERS..jarrod rest in peace, ah la shalom.

The angelic Davidson's imposed visitation limits so severe that we have only been able to visit Malia 1 time during the past year. The loving grandparents are now allowing us to see Malia for 6 hours per day, only 2 days per month, and we must provide an itinerary of our plans 10 days ahead of time. Those restrictions were NEVER imposed on them or on Jarrod. They visited Malia overnights, taking her to stay in hotels and entertaining her however they seemed fit, but they won't allow us the same parameters. How does that show her that they love her and have her best interests in mind? I'm not trying to slander Richard and Susan, I'm trying to point out that their family is dysfuntional, too, and they need to step back and take a look at their actions as well, not just critisize mine. I should not be held liable for actions that my family was convicted of, and the judge in Nevada even told them that. They apparently didn't tell their friends and family that part.

Kasee, once again you have twisted the truth, left out very significant facts and have made accusations not supported by the truth.

Your statement: “They apparently didn’t tell their friends and family that part”

The TRUTH: On but they did tell their family and friends. Every time they visited with Malia after the murder of Jarrod and until they were given temporary custody of Malia when your sister was arrested they sent out an email to family and friends, often times with pictures, describing their visits and providing updates on the actions taken by the San Luis Obispo and Las Vegas family courts.

Your statement: “Those restrictions were NEVER imposed on them or on Jarrod. They visited Malia overnights, taking her to stay in hotels and entertaining her however they seemed fit, but they won't allow us the same parameters.”

The TRUTH: In November 2004 after finding it necessary to file for the right to visit with their granddaughter Susan and Richard were given the SAME two day visits of six hours in the first month, and two day visits of six hours twice a month for two months after that. At the conclusion of each visit Susan and Richard discussed Malia’s progress directly with her therapist during her bi-monthly therapy sessions. The judge granted overnight visits only after the therapist and the court appointed family services representative recommended Susan and Richard be given overnight visits. And what was the position of your sister on extending the visits, she had her lawyer, you and your family members write declarations to the court to try and stop the visits.

Your statement: “The angelic Davidson’s imposed limits so severe that we have only been able to visit Malia 1 time during the past year”

The THRUTH: The “severe limits” are the same limits imposed on Susan and Richard. The difference is they participated with the therapist in the best interest of Malia. You on the other hand objected to working with or even listening to recommendations by Malia’s current therapist. I believe your words went something along the lines that the 6 hour visits were unacceptable that you “would go back to court”. It was your decision to incur additional legal expenses, not Richard and Susan.

And how do your actions “show you love Malia and have her best interest in mind?” They don’t. No matter what spin you try to put on your actions, you are not acting in Malia’s best interest. It’s really not up to me to say this but I don’t think Richard and Susan share your belief that you are one family tied together by Malia.

It’s apparent that you will never ever change, therefore I have decided to join the others who have come to the conclusion it’s not worth the effort to continue further dialogue.

Seymour, you forgot to mention that the only reason short visits were imposed on Richard and Susan for a limited number of times was because Malia did not want to see them and they needed to be re-introduced into her life in a positive manner. She told us, and her therapist, that her grandparents called her a liar and called her mommy bad names. Once they regained her trust, they were permitted more time with her. But they repeatedly insist that they will not allow any extensions on our time with Malia, because "she's fragile and needs to heal." My husband and I worked with Malia's therapist and listened to what she had to say, and she told me that the restrictions being imposed were specifically requested by Richard and Susan and that, as her guardians, they can chose any requirements they want. And as you pointed out, the restrictions were pressed upon them for a length of time of only 1 month, then an additional visit was allowed for the following month. That is not what they are insisting we follow. We are being given a chance at reconsideration after a 6 month time period. That is not the same as what they went through, and you laid out the specifications above - proving the TRUTH. And, that's all besides the point. Any restricions placed on their visits with Malia in the past had nothing to do with me or my children. That was between my sister and them. Again, I am being held liable for actions that I did not commit.

And since they share everything with you: did they tell you that they specifically defied court orders during our visit with Malia in June? The judge specified NO SUPERVISION of our visit at Chuck E. Cheese's, yet Richard and Susan stayed present the entire time, communicating with Malia several times. AGAINST THE JUDGES ORDERS. I'm guessing that bit of defiance was not included in their friendly emails.

Kasee you are a whiner and a complainer. You keep talking when what you really need to do is shut your mouth. Don't talk about defying court orders-your sister defied so many court orders I can't even fit them in the space alloted to write this.(And yes I am grouping you in with your sister because you are constantly defending her and your mother and father. If you want to stand by them then stand by them, silently. Do not act like a sad, little, defenseless dog- you are like cujo!! You have attacked Jarrod's character and the Davidson's. Everyone on this site accept for Sara has attacked you and your character because you put yourself out there- you, yes you. All by yourself. Don't blame anyone!! Accept responsibility!!!) As to the court orders I figure you are going to need examples (or else you will say -"Do you know that for a fact?" "Were you there to witness it?") Every time your sister defied a court order, Jarrod recorded it. It is all there in court records, like in San Diego when the judge ordered both parents to stay in the area and your whole family moved five hours away. The whole family. Or how about the first time Kelee was scheduled to meet Jarrod in Thousand Oaks and she decided not to come because she did not "agree" with what the judge ordered. Do you think that the way you have acted since your family murdered Jarrod would have the Davidson's jumping for joy that you want to be part of Malia's life? Do you get what your family did? Jarrod was not just some pest that your sister didn't want around and so your parents just got rid of him. Jarrod was a real person. He loved and was loved. He laughed, he cried. He had goals, he loved chemistry and Elvis. He loved his family, he loved his daughter, he loved his girlfriend. He got headaches if he didn't eat regularly. He liked to shop with his girlfriend and cousins. He was a good man. He is missed by more people than you will ever know.
So keep whining Kasee, Jarrod is gone and your family murdered him. Stand by your murdering parents and sister - it shows your true character. Everyone sees it. Just remember the apple does not fall far from the tree and keeping that in mind you appear to be a danger to the Davidson's. Get it? You say all these evil things about Jarrod - what is to stop you from saying them to Malia? Do you really think after how you have behaved Malia would benefit from seeing you?
Stop trying to "win." This is not a game. Jarrod's life was taken and we love him and miss him dearly.

Does bashing me bring Jarrod back?

And what good would it do to say bad things to Malia? I would never harm her - she knows the truth about Jarrod anyways, and forcing her to remember him as a good, loving person is calling her a liar all over again. Someday, you'll all see that. I would never speak about any of this with Malia. I simply want to enjoy time with her, and let her enjoy time with her only cousins.

I have not made any threats - to the Davidson's or otherwise. I am not a DANGER to anyone. But all the hatred and anger in all these postings are a definite danger to Malia. I truely hope that in her presense everyone acts accordingly - even though Davidson family and friends have already proved otherwise. Just in the few visits that we've had with her, she has said alarming things! And since Richard and Susan weren't careful in the past to call her mother bad names out of earshot, why would they now?

I'm not trying to "win" anything. I'm trying to make sure that Malia has a chance to grow up with some balance in her life - not all mourning and drama and sorrow. She's a little girl. She needs to be allowed to act like one. Instead of driving around with stickers on the car saying "parents of a murder victim", remember that she's learning to read and she's going to ask questions. And since the judge and couselor said that NO ONE is to discuss the circumstances of her father's death with her at this young age, how are those questions going to be answered? Maybe instead of scrambling for words when she asks, avoid the entire situation by keeping grief inside, away from Malia.

When we moved, as a family, to San Luis Obispo County, Kelee didn't defy any orders. She agreed to drop her restraining order in exchange for permission to move - and permission was granted. That was 5 years ago! Get over it! Squabbles and bickering are part of custody disputes and divorces. And Jarrod was just as guilty as Kelee of fighting over everything - demanding baby strollers and blankets be returned to him when, if he truely cared so much about his daughter, he would have let those be used by her every day as she was used to, instead of only seeing her lovies on weekend visits with daddy. I'm not blackening Jarrod's name - he did that to himself. He was not the saint that his family and friends are making him out to be.

And since the comment about the apple not falling far from the tree is out there now - who molested Jarrod? And now has access to Malia? Child molestors don't just make it up on their own - they've been abused themselves growing up. So who put all those ugly ideas in Jarrod's head? Is Malia safe? If the apple truely doesn't fall far from the tree, then Malia is in danger as long as she remains with the friends and family that Jarrod grew up with. Get it?

Kasee,
You need to cut your losses and understand that you still have a life to lead with your family. You are only hurting yourself by believing that your arguments are going to sway people away from the overwhelming and undeniable facts. Your parents killed Jarrod and it was investigated, tried in a court of law, confessed by your father and sister, and also your mother was convicted by twelve impartial peers. And what is more important is that the molestation charges were also investigated, but Jarrod was not tried, did not confess something he didn't do, and was not convicted. This is because there was no evidence to support it. Unless you can tell me that you witnessed this first hand--drop it. And for your soul's sake, stop involving the bible and your religion. It is obvious by the incorrect statements given that you are a little rusty on biblical facts and religious doctrine. No, not all sins are equal. There are such things like the TEN COMMANDMENTS and CARDINAL SINS that you might want to research before your next faith inspired blog. After 13 years of Catholic school it makes me laugh that people do not bother to just listen in church a little bit. That is, "if" you actually attend. Also, you need to stop making comments like " who obviously knew her innocence" when she chose to confess. No mother in her right mind would willingly confess to having any part of a murder, especially a murder of her child's own father, when she is actually innocent. And if you are trying so hard to be a part of Malia's life, you might want to show up when there are court dates. And don't use the excuse that it is severely harsh, strict, or inconvenient. It certain became inconvenient and harsh when your entire family moved several hours away from Jarrod and wouldn't show up for court appointed visitation. But most importantly, I would avoid making very questionable comments such as, "I am not ashamed of anything I have done, nor am I ashamed of anything I plan to do in the future." I can't blame the Davidson's for not jumping to give you visitation. You know what they say, "the apple doesn't fall far from the tree." So my advise is it to keep your vicious comments to yourself, because this struggle is only hurting everyone--including you.

Oh, and to avoid you making another incorrect statement about the bible, Adam and Eve did not eat an apple. It was stated as a piece of "fruit." Sorry, I just wanted to catch you before you misquoted something once again.

Your latest written allegations against the family caring for your niece has pushed you across the line of decency.

And if the family were to prove your allegations to be false your actions would fit the legal definition of libel (a. defamation by written or printed words, b. the act or crime of publishing it. c. a formal written declaration or statement, as one containing the allegations).

I strongly suggest you refrain from any further unsubstantiated allegations unless you are prepared to defend them in a court of law.

Dear The Law,

Please Please Please take us to court I have been gathering all things pertinent to this case such as Jarrod's use of cocaine and friends of his that saw him cross dressing. There is further proof of his failure to pass the lie detector test the first time but after being coached on how to pass the test by his new attorney he passed. There is also an investigation being done on the background of Malia's psychologist. Instead of leaking the proof that we have to the press I would love the chance to prove all the allegations in a court of law. This time it will be done in a real court and not a one sided courts of Santa Barbara. I've got a better idea: lets do this in Las Vegas so it is convenient for the Davidsons so that when we sue them for everything we can add in time for travel and for daycare of my children. If someone wants to check out my background they will see that I clearly have the money and enough legal guidance to surpass anything the davidson's can throw out. So once again "The Law" I dare anyone to serve us with a laws suit under the libel definition you through around. I am glad that someone of your stature knows how to read a law book or can understand a dictionary.

There was more slandering of character done by the family members and friends that are too chicken to use real names on here to Kasee than I care to imagine. Everyone has different takes on this case because they all have emotions involved. If you step back and look at this case honestly, not just the one side whole court room (including the judge and the jury) heard, and you decide on this case based on all information, you would be able to see all the stuff that was left out of this case and be able to decide for yourself who the monster really is. Where was the motive shown? Where is the murder weapon? Where was the gun powder residue on Phil or Mindy's hands? If you knew the injuries on Phil prior to the murder you would know that if he did fire said weapon then he would have been in the hospital for injuries. Why did it take the Santa Barbara sheriffs 4 times to find what they think was gun powder residue in Phils truck? Phil was pressured into his conviction by the DA and The Judge, there is proof of that. Santa Barbara wanted someone to fall for the murder of a child molesting, drug using(until shortly before being told that he was going to be tested)man that had very weird sexual tendancies. I talked to Jarrod almost every other day until he was murdered. There are alot thing that were left out in the Davidson's tribute to Jarrod in the court room. If taken to court, The Davidsons not only risk Jarrod being proved guilty, but also the fact that they might lose custody of Malia because, as it was said in other entries, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. Jarrod was a molester, so who molested him ????????

You completely missed the point of my previous post, which is simply this: By making false accusations against Richard and Susan Davidson, Kasee has opened herself up to a civil liability that has nothing to do with your in-laws or with Jarrod, his character or his sexual preferences. Kasee claimed that either Richard or Susan, or both, were guilty of molesting Jarrod. You have now added yourself to the liability exposure by making similar accusations. If this were ever to proceed to a civil lawsuit, the only issue that would be admissible in the proceedings would be your accusations against Richard and Susan and the lack of evidence to support those accusations. Anything to do with Jarrod would be irrelevant to those proceedings.

To: The Law
I didn't accuse Richard or Susan of anything. I asked who molested Jarrod? Who started the abuse? An Uncle? A friend? It started with someone - does that someone now have access to Malia? Family trees get big, and the trunk isn't necessarily in Jarrod's immediate family - they branch out to friends, neighbors, and acquaintances.

Don't put words in my mouth, or my husband's, to make us out to be the bad guys.

Wow! I feel sick just reading all the hate in these posts! Don't you all have something better to be doing? Kasee - I know you need to do what you need to do, but why waste the time engaging with people who are making these comments. So many people have been hurt by this whole situation. I feel for everyone involved!To all those making harsh judgements - go do something productive! Kasee and Eric, stay strong and I hope you don't put too much importance or power in the ignorant things that people say. Sara - nice to hear you also live here, hope you are doing well.